micro-b(l)og

2025.04.21 Lu 06:47

dear diary. i just deleted you on accident. im sorry. did that hurt? it hurt me. i had a lot written down. let me start from the beginning. quick summary: i began to think too hard about how i would like to talk to you, how i would like to talk to an inanimate object, nothingness. nothingness? the hard problem of consciousness, of course. and so i forgot to think about what i meant to think about. so i will talk to you like this. maybe this habit will crystalize into something concrete. something with rules. what do you think? i think i like it so far. i miss the lost verses. i am reading my favorite book again. there is a fourth, so i begin with the first once again. it gives me pause often. sparks a thought, an emotion, a curiosity, a passion. quotes and ideas leap out at me. they make me want to talk to you. it makes me interested again. interested. interest. passion. the present tense. i miss you, present tense. i need to pick up my prescription. im tapering. im getting off of it. maybe i will see you around sometime soon, present tense. do you miss me as much as i miss you? i want you back. the spring passes me by. the beauty passes me by like a whisper i thought i might have imagined. the days pass too fast. its almost summer. i remember the fall. i don't remember the fall. so im reading more. and im trying to talk to you. im trying to write. i miss those first few days of withdrawl. they were beautiful, i knew you again, present tense. things were full and exciting. i miss you, present tense. i miss you. do you miss me as much as i miss you?